Why Wait?!?!?

Well, today makes two years since my grandmother passed away. So it has been a day of remembering the good and remembering the sad (I have NO bad memories, Praise God). My grandmother was the very best thing that I was ever given. She always was interested in what was going on in my life and wanted to know my everything. She was my number one supporter and encourager. My grandmother gave life her very all. Even in her dying days she lived life in such a way that you would have thought she felt perfect. You see what made my grandmother different was the love that she had for Christ. She loved Him and served him with her whole heart. She spent time with Him, and fully understood that this life here on earth is just a vapor, here today and gone tomorrow. I feel so blessed to have been able to have her for the 19 years that I did. Oh, how I wish it would have been longer, but that is the human side of me. I wanted and thought I needed her more than Christ needed her. Christ gave her to me and she was His to take whenever He thought was good. Throughout her dying days, she would have such a bad day that I would say, "Okay, Lord I am ready to let go" then with the next breath I would say, "I was only kidding, I am not ready yet". Well when November 2nd, 2006 came, I was NOT ready. I thought I would get married and have children all before Christ decided to take her home. I wanted so badly to change places with her. I did not want to live without her... I wanted her healed. Well, November 2, 2006 God healed her. He called her home, she was ready I was not. I was not ready to let go of my best friend, but it is through her death that I have learned who God is and that no matter what He is still on the throne. He still loves me and needs me to show His love to the people here on earth. He wants me to use what I learned from my grandmother to show others the way to Christ. I read the book "Wait" during this time for strength. I wanted her healed to live here on earth with me but God was saying "Wait" I WILL heal her... just "wait".

God NEVER gives us more than we can bare. Sometimes, through the pain and the mist of everything we feel as though we have been given way too much, But we must remember God will never give us more than we can bare.

On a different note do you ever remember when you were a little child and you asked your parents for something and they told you, "NO!" or "wait"? Like when you wanted a new bike and your mom said wait and see what Santa brings, or you wanted that bag of candy and your dad said not until you eat your dinner. Well, I have had several of those moments throughout my life, and believe it or not, God is like that too. Sometimes He tells us either "NO" or simply wait. I have asked for something and God has openly said this is not your time... and unfortunately I have no other choice but to be 100% satisfied with the fact that God knows exactly what he is doing. And as was said by my friend, Paula Britt, sometimes it takes situations to fully see who God is and what He is doing in your life. Let me tell you... God is amazing, He never ceases to amaze me. When I wake up in the morning I am reminded that it is God who allowed me to wake up and get out of bed, and it is God that I am to Praise for that. It is God that knows the stars by name, and it is God that knows the whole story of my life, He not only has already read my life story book from beginning to end, it is GOD that wrote my life story book. He knows what will happen in the next 2 minutes and the next 200 years. Now that is amazing! So in the mist of my waiting period I am once again reminded of the book entitled "Wait" by Russell Kelfer. This book is the reminder that I need when God tells me to wait. Here is the book.....

Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried; quietly, patiently, loving, God replied. I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate... and the Master so gently said, "Wait." "Wait? you say wait?" my indignant reply. "Lord, I need answers, I need to know why!" Is your hand shortened? Or have you not heard? By faith I have asked, and I'm claiming your Word. My future and all to which I relate hangs in the balance, and you tell me to Wait?" I'm needing a 'yes,' a go-ahead sign. Or even a 'no,' to which I'll resign. You promised, dear Lord, that if we believe, We need but to ask, and we shall receive. Lord, I've been asking, and this is my cry: I'm weary of asking! I need a reply. Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate, as my Master replied again, "Wait." So I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut, and grumbled to God, "So I'm waiting... FOR WHAT?" He seemed then to kneel, and His eyes met with mine... and He tenderly said "I could give you a sign. I could shake the heavens and darken the sun. I could raise the dead and cause mountains to run. I could give all you seek and pleased you would be. You'd have what you want, but you wouldn't know ME. You'd not know the depth of My love for each saint. You'd not know the power that I give to the faint. You'd not learn to see through clouds of despair; you'd not learn to trust just by knowing I'm there. You'd not know the joy of resting in Me when darkness and silence are all you can see. You'd never experience the fullness of love when the peace of My spirit descends like a dove. You would know that I give, and I save, for a start, But you'd not know the depth of the beat of My heart. The glow of My comfort late into the night, the faith that I give when you walk without sight. The depth that's beyond getting just what you ask from an infinite God who makes what you have last. You'd never know should your pain quickly flee, what it means that My grace is sufficient for thee. Yes, your dearest dreams overnight would come true, but, oh, the loss, if you missed what I'm doing in you. So, be silent, my child, and in time you will see that the greatest of gifts is to truly know me. And though oft My answers seems terribly late, My most precious answer of all is still.... Wait"